DEPPRESED AND FAT😞🙃

5th grade I got bullied and thought nothing of it 6-7th grade didn’t think really nothing of it you know u eat what u like and u loveee what u eat 8th grade is a little more hard all summer just being the “fat cheerleader” everyone expects u to be skinny and I’m not by weighing 160 at 13 I’m 5’3 and at a pool party last summer for cheerleaders only and every one was skinny and in bikinis so I put one on to... what a mistake. A girl poked my belly and yelled “EW HAHA LOOK AT ALL THAT FAT!!” And I put a towel on and sat out the rest of time. Then she told me I had fat jiggly arms . After summer began to date this boy I realllly liked and so I began working out daily being “healthier” your know running/walking 2 miles and then after me and my best friend got in a fight that night I cried walking up and down my street crying . I walked 15 miles that night. After that I fell into depression always think I’m fat and ugly and NO one loves me and I have more and more break downs started with probably 2 every other month now it’s 7 time this week I want to just got die but I will not do that I feel empty I take medicine for ADHD and ADD+ dyslexia so it makes me more depressed I can’t handle this anymore any tips plz no negative comments I can’t take them...