I am a b*tch and I know it

I am such a b*tch and I know it. I get mad at my husband for doing stuff and leaving me alone with the kids. I am a stay at home mom of two little kids. I suffer from depression, anxiety, and borderline anorexia. I am pretty sure i have bipolar disorder too. My relationship suffered so much lately from dishonesty and cheating. I feel like I can’t handle life and I hate being around people yet I hate when my husband leaves me alone with the kids. I feel so overwhelmed with the children and housework. I never have fun anymore i always feel like i have to rush home to be with my kids. My husband on the other hand always takes his time and has fun. I understand his side. It is logical. I know. Why do I feel this way? Why can’t I control how I feel? Why can’t i just be a good woman, wife, and mother???