I cheated on my boyfriend with one of his childhood friends the 2nd month we started dated i didnt tell him until our 3rd month he cried screamed and was so pissed he left but eventually came back and said he forgives me and cant live without me so i felt bad and told him please just leave i dont want to hurt you but he stayed and after few months i cheated again with another 3 guys 2 exs and one friend🤕 i know im a hoe or whatever you want to call me but i dont know i cant control it and he doesnt know about this but i want him to leave he keeps coming back😭 i started acting like this and cheating ever since my dad and one of his friends tried to rape me too and i was in foster care for 3 years loneliness and depressed🤕 i know my past shouldnt affect my future but it does i just dont know why i fucking did this to my boyfriend hes one of the nicest kindest person and i don’t deserve his love because im hurting him🤕 But i Cant tell him i cheated i just cant we are know dating for 8 months...