So, my husband and decided to do <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> after 10 years of trying. Everything think was going well, including the egg retrieval especially for my age 42. They would call and up date me on my embryos I even started calling them my babies. Everything was going great, then they did the genetic testing and it came back all kinds of wrong. The doctor informed us my "babies" had to many chromosomes or not enough. I felt like a part of me had died I will never get to holds my 2 boys in my arms, or feel them grow inside of me. I will never get to watch them grow up, go to school, graduated, get married etc. I'v been crying ever since. My husband has been so supportive and loving and all he wants to do is make me happy. I have no idea how to get through this. The doctor informed us my eggs are to old and it is not likely to or even possible that I could have a normal pregnancy because of my age. They did suggest egg donor but that is even more expensive than <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>. I feel I am worthless and my husband deserve to have everything, he is so good and loving and he deserves someone that can give him a child.He says I am stuck with him that he isn't going anywhere. God sure gave me a good man, but why won't He give me a baby. Why can't I stop crying my heart feels like there is a hole in it. How do I get over a double broken heart,one my babies will never be and two my eggs are up old. How do I mourn my embryos. How do I make the pain in my heart stop? Can it be true I can never have a healthy baby on my own?