Me and my SO have been together for 4 years! I was a single mom of 2, worked full time and school full time before him. We now share 2 more babies. He is the only provider due to (his reasoning) having one vehicle (mine).

Im a very low maintenance and easy going person by force.

I never ask for NOTHING! No clothes, make-up, hygene stuff. He makes me feel guilty for asking. So i get what i can when my dad sends money for bdays and holidays or just because. Which is only enough for me to stock up what i need. We never go on dates or anywhere for that matter unless its the

grocery store. I get no flowers or any gifts. Never told he appreciates me and all i do.Only shown affection if it leads to sex. I cook every meal, clean the house daily, they always have clean clothes, and im always there when hes sore to rub him.

Today my tribe sent me a check of 500 for xmas. i decided i was gonna set an appt for my hair because i havent been to a salon in years!!! I told him my plan then he tells me he cant watch the kids. So now im once again forced to post pone something for me because it doesnt fit his schedule. Just now he had the nerve to ask what im buying him nd wining and dinning him at?! I got pissed off and said this.

I may have have gone over board but im sick of. He cant spend a measly 20 bucks on me because thats wasting money and yet he gambles 80+ every pay day!!!! Buys us fast food couple times a month and we eat at home and that wining and dining me!!! I dont even remember the last time he called me beautiful!!!

I love him. I am staying. Maybe for not the right reasons. Hes a great dad but just a shitty partner sometimes. When hes awesome is when im going thru personal stuff with family or just feel like a shitty mom he listens and reaffirms me im doing good. But when it comes to being shown that im a good wife and he loves me its like he cant talk about it because he doesnt want to argue".

How in the hell am I suppose to openly talk to him bout this without him shutting down saying he dont want to argue and leaves it with making me feel guilty for having feelings of being unappreciated or loved.