When I was 15 (3 years ago), I attempted suicide and it put me in the hospital and nearly killed me. I was then put in an outpatient treatment center where I did therapy. What I’m trying to say is that I AM NOT suicidal. I don’t plan on suicide. But my mind does think “Oh maybe we will get in a car crash and I won’t survive”, stuff like that. I also feel like I want to cut sometimes, although I’m not depressed. I guess I’m a little sad, maybe that’s why. I think a lot about that week I overdosed and sometimes I just wish I could go back to that time, even though I’m “recovered” or whatever you want to call it. It might just be bc I liked having something wrong with me, I always like being sick or injured. Is this normal??? I’ve never heard of anyone thinking this way before. Please try not to judge, I’m honestly just looking for help, not attention :/