No matter how much I despise you for leaving me I will always love you. And it hurts me everyday to not know where you are or if your safe or happy. How could you get up and leave 4 kids and your whole life just for some younger interested man half way across the country? Was it worth it? Because you used to call me when you first left 4 years ago, last text I got from you was over the summer. My birthday passed last week and you left me without even a phone call. How many more birthdays are going t go by the same way? I’m fifteen years old and a girl needs her mother. Your were my best friend and closest to me in the family and to leave me and the rest of us behind is just well it’s not delightful on my side. I hate myself everyday more and more for caring about you, I wish I could switch off my emotions and just not care. I shouldn’t have to care! Are you safe? Are you happy? Am I ever going to see you again? It makes me feel crazy. And I don’t even know what I want at this point! That’s how bad you’ve messed with my head!if your here with me how exactly am I supposed to feel toward you? Because I actually can’t imagine you back into my life. Where are you and please come home. I don’t want to live my life without you, and I’m not sure I can.

Thank you for listening to my rant if you actually took the time to do that. If it’s not too much trouble could you pray for her and me? All I want is to see her again.