This is something I’ve been really wanting to share for a long time, but since I’m not comfortable sharing it with those I know yet, I’ll do it here.

I grew up in the church. My dad was a pastor (up until last year) so it’s been a really big part of my life. When I was 13 we moved across the country to start a church. I got involved in a new youth group that has really strengthened my faith and given me some of the best friends i could imagine. The move has given me so many opportunities and I feel so blessed that got did this for me.

But the church we started did not go well. We pulled through for two year, but last March we had to close. It was my dad’s dream to start a church, and for months he was very depressed. Both of my parents had to get jobs, but neither are very high paying so everyone is stressed and we aren’t very financially stable at the moment.

This really tested my faith. I didn’t understand why God would let this happen when we were trying to do his work. Around this time I also broke up with my boyfriend and began a struggle that I still have to this day.

I’ve realized that I am a lesbian. I’ve prayed and prayed about this, asking for God to change it but it hasn’t gone away. I began to get very discouraged and walked away from God for awhile because it was much easier. But my youth group and the camp helped me come back to my faith even though I’ve been struggling. I came out to my friends and youth pastor, and they’ve all been incredibly supportive. They’ve encouraged me to read the Bible and talk to God and find his truth. I’ve done my best, and you know what? I’m still a lesbian. I truly believe that God has placed me in this position to teach love and acceptance to those around me. My parents and Christian friends still love me and support me, and I know I’m getting closer to god.

Many of you may not agree with me. I have more thoughts to offer on the subject of homosexuality if you would like to know, but for now I’m not going to get into it. All I know is that god loves me and I’m still shining his light into the world.

I understand if you do not agree with me, but please be mindful of your comments.