It bothers me a lot that my boyfriend watches porn. I came home from working the over-night shift at work a few hours ago and he had fallen asleep with it open on his phone, not to mention this was literally hours after we had just had sex. I’ve assumed he has watched porn but it’s the first time I’ve actually seen what he watches and I think what bothers me the most is that I’m very self conscious about my body type. I am an AA cup with a very slim figure and small butt and he tells me he prefers small boobs but that isn’t at all what he seems to be into based on what he had been watching. And it’s not like he watches unrealistically attractive women, it’s either amateur porn or one specific porn star who is a very average looking woman but much, much more attractive than me and the women are always very curvy. It doesn’t help that he and his ex use to film themselves having sex and post it on the internet and I’ve recently caught him (over a year after we started dating) checking up on her Instagram profile at least a few times a week. I think he realized it bothers me because he woke up earlier for a second while I was out of the room, saw that he had left it open, and I think he noticed I was being pretty short with him and asked what was wrong. He went back to sleep so we haven’t talked about it yet. Am I overreacting? I can’t help but feel like I’m not good enough, physically. I know he loves me and that physical touch is better than porn but it’s always just in the back of my mind that he doesn’t find me as sexy as I’d like for him to. And maybe he’d be more into me if I looked more like those women 😕