I’m not sure if anyone will even read this but if you do, be kind.

I’m 21 and lost my virginity in August to a “friends with benefits” type thing. We’ve hooked up a lot since then and one night, he finished inside of me. I had messed up my pill that month so I panicked a little but he promised Plan B would work and we would be fine. I am a serious worrier when it comes to sex lol so after I took the pill, I tried to forget about it.

My period was eight days late. I knew the pill would somewhat affect it, but where it had happened around 2 1/2 weeks before my period, after the 5th day of being late, I started to worry. I had no signs of my period, and if I did, it was the same as the early signs of pregnancy. I cried all the time- not only because of side effects, but because all I could think of was how I can’t have a baby; I can’t handle a baby, I can’t afford a baby, I still have to finish school. So abortion seemed like the only way to go, which made me cry even more, because it hurt my heart to think about doing that. I was too afraid to even mention it to my friend, because he once mentioned he would want to keep it, and that was scary because then it would be a huge thing and so many people would find out. And I couldn’t tell my mom, because she’s religious and doesn’t really believe sex before marriage.

Anyway, once my period came, I cried so much and definitely learned my lesson on protected sex.

Point of this story was this: I never saw myself having children, I don’t usually connect with them and I have a very low pain tolerance lol, but thanks to that scare, I now know for sure that I want at least one child. I also realize that, although I have always been very accepting of anyone’s decision on abortion, adoption, etc., i have a new respect for all of you. Whatever decision you’ve made, no matter what, you are extremely strong, and I’m proud of you.