TW: body image, eating issues, weight

Hey all,

I never really do this but I’m reallllllly needing some help. I have a doctors appointment on Tuesday that I’m considering canceling because I don’t want to see how much I weigh. In my eyes, I am not overweight but i have always struggled with my body image and have had unhealthy eating habits in the past (both binging and starving). I have gained some weight this year and the last time I went to the doctors, I left in uncontrollable tears because of the scale. How do I bring this up with my doctor? I know I should know what I weigh but I’m worried it will be really triggering for me. I have never gotten professional help about this either. I really want to cancel my appointment.