I love my boyfriend, and he's opening up sexually. Before me, he knew NOTHING about ANYTHING other than putting it in and getting it over with. I have taught him how to enjoy himself, take his time, and open his mind to the GIANT world of sex and what it can be.

But I have a fantasy that he won't ever be able to mentally handle.

My fantasy involves him pushing me against the wall, yanking off my clothes between harsh kisses, my hands fondling to undo his jeans, him picking me up and carrying me to the table, and then the cabinet... then to the bed where he takes his sweet time to make love to me but staying carried away with it.. we roll into the floor and keep kissing... gah. I just need it. He just isn't that kind of spontaneous.. I don't want to tell him all of this and scare him. He likes tying me up, loves oral, loves making me scream, loves me calling him daddy, loves choking me and spanking me.... I have so many wants and wishes for our sex life, but if I tell him those wishes, I will get totally shut down because he's scared. I'm not upset about this at all, just a little disappointed that my fantasies won't come true.