Okay, so I'm gonna start by saying I am pissed that I just wrote this all out detailed and all just for it to stall out or something and delete my whole post! Errrggh. So I'm going to try again..

Today I called it quits. I am done with this abusive, one sided relationship I've been in for far too long. A little back story here.. we had been together 8 years. In June of this year I moved out. I took our 5 year old daughter. She wanted to come with me and he did not object. (Which was no surprise) I left mostly because I am pregnant and cannot deal with the stress. However, I gave him the benefit of the doubt and told him we could remain together if he wished..and as long as things progressed, we could eventually live together again. Well, needless to say..it's December and things haven't progressed. He has been very very abusive to me in the past both physically and verbally. He actually put me in the hospital once and I probably should've went a couple times before that as well but I didn't. I tried my best to understand that he was dealing with a lot and his health is bad and he has no family. I guilted myself into staying for really stupid reasons. I kept that "love him through it" shit and didn't see the bigger picture. After I moved out he "tried" making it better by asking us to come over and have dinner, spend time together, etc.. but no real effort.. I'd come over for him to play his PlayStation while I cook for us.. smh..

Anyway, fast forward to today.. I've been up with our daughter since 230 this morning she was burning up and not feeling well. I looked everywhere for the thermometer but I couldn't find it. At 7 sharp I took her in to the doc..fever was 103.. she has the flu..when I left the doc and pharmacy, I called her dad (about 930am) so I could come by and get the thermometer I had to have left there when I moved out. I had to call him 6 times to answer. Then when he finally answered,his response was "why does she even need a thermometer? You know she has a fever." (Not wanting to get out of the bed.) I explained to this sack of rocks that I needed to keep tabs on her temp and make sure it goes down. He sighed and made all these noises as if this was killing him (like he is the one pregnant with twins and taking care of a 5 year old with the flu!) so I got pissed and told him I would just go buy a new one and hung up. These are the messages exchanged immediately after..

Let me just tell you ladies.. he has never so much as given our daughter a bath! Much less taken her to the doctor or done anything beneficial for her. Which is why I made the comment "like always"

I AM DONE.

I am over the way he speaks to me and I am over the way he acts as if his daughter does not exist!! He never wanted a daughter.. he has three boys from a previous relationship and he spends more time and money with them and makes it quite obvious he cares more for his boys than our daughter. I'm just sad I'm pregnant now with twins who will have to deal with the same narcissistic asshole of a father. But, just like I have prevailed with MY daughter.. I'll do it again with MY two boys!