So I’ve been seeing this great guy for a little while now . He’s in the army and set to deploy next year . We decided to take off the label and commitment while he was away for training for a month because he and I decided it would be best - but we kept talking like normal - as if we were full fledge together . So he just got back last night earlier than expected from training and I was set to see him today I was so ecstatic! So I go to base and wind up going back home because they’re busting balls about having to go to the visitors center. So I call him and talked to him for almost 2 hours and we got on the topic of deploying and how he’s concerned for me about if he died or got injured and how the others at JRTC told him to end our relationship ASAP . So he was telling me the reasons which one was cheating which I threw out Bc I was completely faithful and committed long distance for almost 3 years . A point that I accepted was that he’d be distracted by me because he told me that I was on his mind all the time during training and couldn’t concentrate. His main reasoning is that he knows this hurts and it sucks and he does not want to end it , told me he cares about me and wants me etc but it would “ hurt less “ to end it now rather than later . But I am COMPLETELY devastated. Like I’m genuinely in love with this man. He makes me smile so much my cheeks hurt he makes me so so happy . I was ready to deal with this stuff as it came . I feel like I just took a dagger to my heart . He and I had a similar conversation earlier on in our relationship about the risks etc but I talked him out of it and gave solid reasons like for example that it wouldn’t be for another 6 months and anything could happen in that time and we decided to take it on together . But he really felt in his mind that he had no choice but to end it . And clearly this has been eating at him ever since and he ended it over the phone with me and told me he didn’t know how to end it when I asked the terms because if we “ end “ it how we did the first time it really didn’t change anything. So this is full blown cut off no more communication. I was sitting in my car in the driveway hysterically crying. I am so

heart broken I was so excited for him to be back . I’ve been pining away for him faithful to him and Now I honestly can’t try to date for a long long while . I thought he could be the one . I would have never guessed that the night before he left for training would be the last time I’d see him or kiss him or hug him. I let my guard down because he wasn’t like the other guys . And this is the most painful thing for me. Sorry this is long ish and all over the place but I feel like there are many couples that stay together during and before a deployment so I’m completely blindsided because we agreed we were in this thing together and I understood the terms . Guess I should change my lock screen .