Help...

So my boyfriend and I were seniors when we got pregnant . We had outlet baby and got married . ( we were and still very in love ) that’s why we got married not just because of the baby . Anywho within our first year of having our baby and been through financial struggles and 4 months of marriage he recently said that we would only have sex with condoms unless I’m on the pill (something went wrong with my insurance so I didn’t have it for a while) so I was on the pill and we always had raw sex . When my insurance messed up I had to stop taking my pill . He hasn’t wanted to have sex without condoms. Now I know I have to put myself in his shoes and realize how much stress it caused to have an unexpected pregnancy and stuff but to me it’s more sensual than that . Having sex with a condom while married isn’t something sweet to me . I love to make love to him which is raw & sweet and wanting to feel him in me . Not something in between us . Am I thinking to hard about it ? Do I need to be more of a realist and think just in case ? Do you guys ever think condom during marriage is like bad?