Feeling so guilty

I’m 9 weeks pregnant with my rainbow and the last 4 weeks have been torture with all day sickness. I had the same when pregnant with my son, but I never threw up. Well, this pregnancy I’m even more sick, I vomit a lot and often. The last 3 days have been so awful that I’m crying all the time. I feel so emotional and I’m hating this feeling. And then at the same time I’m feeling super guilty for hating this so much. I should be happy and just sucking it up because this is my rainbow and I wanted it so badly, but I can’t get over how awful I feel. This is the most vicious cycle. 😪