When I was kid I never got a good Christmas. I was always in foster care. Well last year my fiance wasnt working and I spent a lot on him for Christmas. He has a job this year but we've been struggling with money. he has called out 3 times this week. We really needed that money we habe all the bills paid for this month...and I don't think he is going to get me anything...I dont know I don't want anything expensive...I guess I'm just selfish he isnt really romantic. my sons Christmas gifts are taken care of and his. Am I selfish I feel so bad ive always wanted a christmas. I've really never had one that I can remember. I don't😭 know rant over