Af stop f* with my emotions! Who’s with me?

Amanda • •28• Newly wed👰🤵💍 mamma to baby boy❤️👶

We have been actively trying for about 16month but 4 with fertility drugs.currently using femara and we upped our dosage this round and I changed my dates from 3-7 to 5-9 and had a positive opk on dec 6. Af was supposed to show up around yesterday and still hasn’t or any sign of her! Have taken 2 tests resulting in a BFN 🤨 but won’t believe it till until she shows! Gaa I just either want a positive or a period hahah! Anyone else really wanting that early Christmas gift of a BFP!!