Loosing Hope need some type of positivity

I'm finally giving up after a year of ttc I get my hopes up just to be let down an have AF come visit after a week late I'm loosing my mind like my body doesn't work right or something it breaks my heart idk what more to do. I give all you ladies props for keeping faith an keep sain an continue to try. I no longer can I'm falling into depression I hope an pray so much just have AT LEAST 1 baby. How did you women keep having so much faith what did y'all change use ect. please please please ladies respond