Not sure if this is my period talking, my sleepiness or maybe I'm fed up. I have at least 4 different outlets(writing, running, dancing, crying) but I haven't used any of them and I feel crappy. School's out so at least I don't have that stress, but there's still over thinking, trying to make sure my mom doesn't worry about me(which I know she is and will cause it's senior year and I'm her only one). I just want everything to go back to normal but I know it won't happen and I'm mad about it. The holidays haven't been the same since my grandma passed in 2013 then my uncle passed in 2015 which both have taken a toll on my dad. We don't really have a relationship, I mean we're close but its probably not how it should be. I know I'm going all over the place but I want to get everything off my chest that I can cause sometimes, I don't. I'm currently at my aunts Christmas party and ready to go to bed.