Connection to baby after a loss

Dayna • Mama to the sweetest baby girl -

Hey everyone I’m 28 weeks pregnant !! This will be my first : ) I had a previous miscarriage at 9 weeks and I’m finding it’s really changed how I’m dealing with this pregnancy. In the beginning I didn’t want to share the news with anyone ... finally started telling people around 14 weeks. Now that I’m further along I find I’m always finding something to worry about. I told myself once I reached my 20 week ultrasound I would allow myself to get excited knowing everything’s ok. At my 20 week there were no issues everything looked great but now I’m obsessing over my ultrasound picture where it looks like there’s something on her lips. Doctors have reassured me eveherbifns fine and its-probably the umbilical cord or a weird reflection. It’s almost like I don’t want to believe this baby is going to be born perfect so I’m scared to get attached on case there’s a big problem or another loss ... I just feel like I’m not feeling as connected as I should and that worries me...