I see everyone announcing thier pregnancy. my brother had his first son, all of my high school friends are having kids. all the people I went to school with are having children. My dream has always been to be a mother. always. It's something that I've yearned for as long as I can remember. And I have such a strong maternal instinct. He tells me he wants to be ready. He wants us to be in a good place, and he wants us to be financially ready. He always puts an age to it "we'll do it when I'm 25" kinda thing.. he's 22..I feel so selfish for wanting to have a baby. is this normal? I know we should wait, I understand the importance of being in a good place. I just have this empty hole.. this hole that for some reason is filled with jelousy and angst..... ontop of that I'm pretty sure my boyfriend is going to propose soon, my brother and his girlfriend just got engaged, and I seen the look on his face when he found out. it was dissapointment. He pulled my brother outside for a privite conversation, that's lasted about 30 minuets.. we've been together about 2 years now lived together about 2 years now. We love each other, and I'm blessed to have him so without a second thought I'd say yes Right now I'm trying to contain my baby feaver with my dogs. I have 4. I love my animals, he just dosen't seem to understand why I spend most of my time with them, why I try to keep myself distracted so much... thanks for reading this. I just needed a place to get this out. I know there are people that can't have kids, and there are people who've lost thier's to tragedy, and it makes me feel so selfish to have these feelings and these thoughts. but I can't seem shake them.. I know it will come in time, it just seems a life time away sometimes... below are photos of my furry family. they're the only thing keeping me sane... sorry about my face. my rottie puppy was having a shoot done. he'll be in a calander. yay Moose!!