Ok so my so of 12 years decided yesterday that he was goin out for the night. (I have no problem with this) however he did not come home last night ( I've seen his snapchats and know that he was at a house party in the early hours) but still has not contacted me at all today so I know he has gone out tonight again (2 nights in a row) I'm so angry I am sat at home on my own now having to wake up Christmas morning on my own. I refuse to call or text him as he doesn't think of me when he goes out (wits are completely out when the drink is in) and I refuse to chase after him when he doesn't have the respect to contact me. Any advice on how I should handle this? my family also keep asking "will he visit over Christmas but at this point I

just want to spit in his face not spend time with him and my family pretending everything's ok. also we have been ttc #1 for a about 6 months now and am hesitant to throw 12 years away love him to bits but sometimes I feel like he is never goin to grow up. He is 31.