I had my daughter the 21st, and had 3 first degree tears. peeing is beyond excruciating. it literally feels like someone is taking a blow torch to my urethra. I cannot pee no matter what I do. nothing helps. I've tried different positions, dermoplast, a squirt bottle, peeing in my sitz baths, everything. I'm honestly thinking about calling the emergency room and asking them if they can straight catheter me. I cry because of the pain, and it's so frustrating. is there any creams or sprays that completely numb the area to the point you can't feel it? it's making me so depressed and miserable.