5.5 years ago, I went in to labor on my due date - only to arrive at the hospital and discover my son had no heartbeat. My beautiful baby boy was born sleeping and let me tell you, my heart will never heal.

My current BF (Not my sons bio dad) are currently TTC and he knows my fear that I might not love my rainbow baby or any baby quite as much as I love my Dominic.

My boyfriend has been beyond supportive and does everything in his power to bring a smile to my face when I’m having one of my bad days. And this Christmas - he truly outdid himself.

I opened my last gift and it was a necklace from the company “Held Your Whole Life” - I know it may not seem like much to others but that he took the time to research and look for something to give me to keep the memory of my son alive - it means the world to me. I’m one lucky lady to have found him ❤️

•UPDATE• My man text me while he was at work today and asked if I’d be willing to take him to the cemetery because he wants to meet Dominic. My heart is overflowing with love for this man - to say I love him is an understatement. I am so incredibly blessed to have him.

..he’s a goober and I think he’s excited to be a father hopefully some time soon

I’m so damn lucky to have a man who loves me just as much as I love him💜

& this is us ☺️

Thank you to all the ladies who showed me support with this post - TTC after my son died is a whole other level of scared and stressful that I didn’t know possible. The fear that is constantly in my mind that something will go wrong with my next pregnancy, or that I could never possibly love another baby quite as much as I love Dominic, or that I will fail as a mother - the list is endless...that fear is debilitating some times. But my man never fails to make me feel better one way or another. I couldn’t imagine going through this journey with anyone else by my side as my partner in crime. I’m currently overwhelmed with love and support 💜