Mixed emotions


Early November I had a miscarriage which absolutely broke me. Since then my husband and I haven’t engaged in sexual activities. He said it’s coz his so tired and stuff I feel like it’s coz I’m unattractive 😢

Anyway for Christmas my MIL brought some baby stuff (couple clothes, blankets and a toy) I kinda thought it was cute but at the same time feel super pressured, I asked my husband what he thought about it and he said the same thing he feels extra pressured. I’m scared he doesn’t want to try again I know the miscarriage hurt him to and he still tears up but I really want a baby but I’m really scared I will fail again and disappoint everyone 😭💔