For thr first time since then

I was raped a while back by my ex boyfriend. it was tramatic to say the least. it really fucked me up. I had nightmares for months and months. countless sleepless nights. I have a new boyfriend now. at first every time he touched me I flinched away, but as time went on and I healed I was able to over come my fears. I had consenting sex for the first time, a little while back, a

nd he helped me to make beautiful memories. I won't lie, the first time I cried. a lot. we had to stop, but my now boyfriend pulled me into his arms and told me to cry. told me it was okay and that I was safe and he would never hurt me. I believe him. which hasn't happened with anyone since I was raped. I will never forget what happened to me, but I will not let that awful guy have control over my emotions anymore.