i love how i can post anonymously because i hate being open about my feelings and being on anon allows me to express myself and be honest about everything that has been going on.

i feel super depressed, my anxiety is high, and every time i feel good about myself it only lasts 10 minutes and then i feel horrible again. i wish this pain would stop. i feel like no one is ever gonna want to be with me because of the way i am and i’ll just be alone my whole life.

A few months ago i made a big mistake that i only told a few people about. I’m scared my family will find out and never look at me the same way again.(

i basically hooked up with a guy and gave a hj to him after meeting him for the first time) it was a horrible mistake and i hate myself for it. i despise myself. i didnt know i could hate myself more than i already did before doing this but I DO. I hate that i fell into pressure. It might not be a big deal to others but this is serious especially since my family is religious and does not condone this kind of stuff. anyways. Idk if anyone else feels like shit too but its 7am where i live (i did an all nighter) and i usually do all nighters just thinking about my life and crying non stop. Everything is crashing down on me and i’m scared of what i might do to myself. anyways. sorry if this was too long. i felt like i needed to express myself somehow. stay blessed everyone. xx