In October I found out I was pregnant with my 2nd child and I was ecstatic! I couldn’t wait to tell my (immediate) family as that’s what I did with my first. I told my daughter every day that she was going to be a big sister! This excitement was short lived as only a week 1/2 after I found out I started bleeding. I didn’t want to believe this was actually happening to me, so I put off going to the hospital or even telling anyone about the bleeding. After a few days I finally went where they confirmed my worst nightmare. I lost my baby. It broke my heart in two. It dragged me back to a depression I thought I had escaped when I had my daughter. I can’t get back to that complete happiness I once had. I know some people have actually lost their children who have taken breath on this earth, but once you find out you’re having a little “you” it becomes real and you start dreaming of what it’ll be and everything that could have been. I’m petrified to even get pregnant again because I have no idea if I can go through this pain again. Is there hope to get passed this pain? I want to be able to give my daughter a sibling but I am scared that I won’t be able to handle another loss.