I can't anymore. the thoughts are to strong. I've thought about cutting myself for awhile, but everyone I grab a blade and put it to my skin, I chicken out. instead I scrape combs across my thighs very roughly, or pop rubber bands against my wrists. I get called a "slut", "whore", "bitch", and other names. I've lost almost all my friends. my best friend is no longer my friend, my dad has never been much of a father figure, my brother is so mean, he thinks I'm crazy and belong in a mental hospital. I'm a bigger girl, I know that being bigger isn't a big deal, my mom says I'm beautiful either way, but when I was younger I remember her saying something about me being bigger, she was big too, not anymore due to surgery she had recently, but I remember awe had she said something about me being overweight and I said "God made me this way, he wanted me to look this way." she replied "God doesn't make people fat, you did this" the rest in the comments