So me and my husband lost our first baby together at 8 weeks in November. baby had stopped developing at 5/6 weeks. I have a daughter who is 8 from a previous relationship when I was 21. I fell pregnant so easily with her that I thought I'd have no problem conceiving again. me and my husband tried for nearly a year before we conceived. Anyway we were visiting family over Christmas and my sister has a son about 18 months. I love my nephew but he was running around like a mad man and screaming and it took me.straight back to when my daughter was that age and how hard it was. At that moment I decided that I'm going to let go of my fears about conceiving and just enjoy my life as it is now because it will be so different when we finally get our rainbow. don't get me wrong I'm so excited for it to happen!! But it made me realise that I should enjoy all the things i love about my life now too before everything changes. just thought I'd share xx