I hate my Body

so i’m shopping and every time i look in the mirror i just have constant negative thoughts. i’m sooo skinny and sooo white like i just hate It so much i can’t find anything that fits me. even xtra small bottoms are too big on me. like what the hell. i have no idea why my boyfriend likes me. i used to work out before my stupid ass parents made me stop because It was “my way of picking up boys” and “i didn’t really wanna work out” and when i worked out i felt great, my clothes would fit, and i didn’t just feel like a toothpick. now i look in the mirror and literally turn around because i just feel so disgusting