First prenatal appointment

After being anxious for a week, my appointment finally came and gone. We did a TV ultrasound and at first my doctor told me my bladder was too full. I did catch a glimpse of the screen before she told me to go empty my bladder and I saw the dark area where the baby should be and there wasn’t anything. I lay back down after I use the restroom and she turns the screen towards herself and my husband so I couldn’t see it. I had a feeling something was wrong because she wasn’t saying anything and she at first had the screen towards me.

After what seemed like forever she finally said something. She only said something because my 3 yr old said something and I made a comment of she’s looking at the baby, I think there’s a baby there. My doctor then said I see the yolk sac and a tiny heartbeat. But the heartbeat is slow. She said I was measuring a little over 5 weeks instead of the 7 calculated based on LMP. At that moment my heart sank, I knew something was wrong this whole week. She then proceeded to tell me I need to do some lab work and to come back in a week for another ultrasound.

My doctor said it’s either 2 things, I’m going to miscarry or I ovulated late. I told her I had a feeling something was wrong because (this being my 3rd pregnancy) I’ve had no symptoms. Not like my other 2 pregnancies.

I know there’s that slim chance I just ovulated late because I’m still nursing my daughter but I just have that gut feeling I’m going to lose this one. I know I’m already very blessed to have two beautiful healthy little ones. And I know it’s not my fault if I do lose the baby. I just can’t help but to be sad and worried because it’s my baby.

Sorry this post was long. Hoping for the best and good news for the new year.