Debating on putting baby up for adoption....

I fear the worst will happen with the baby’s father if I keep him.

I don’t want my son growing up with his parents fighting just because his father is selfish and can’t carry on a decent conversation without having to say something hurtful. I don’t want my son being raised that it’s okay to manipulate, guilt trip and verbally, emotionally and mentally abuse people.

I don’t want my son to grow up to be another toxic person added to society because his father taught him it was okay....

I would rather give him up for adoption to two loving people who’d raise him right and raise him away from my ex.

It kills me to think of adoption but it hurts me more to know his father would just drag him face first threw the mud to hurt me.

He’s already hurting my son by purposefully going out of his way to say things he knows will upset and stress me out.... I can’t imagine how much worse it’ll get when he’s born....

He never even wanted the baby. Even said he’d never love him.... why he can’t just leave us alone I don’t understand.... But I can’t allow my son to be put threw this drama....

I don’t know what to do....

I absolutely love my son already and just typing this and thinking of adoption brings tears to my eyes. But the battle I know my ex will start, the drama that would just hurt my son terrifies me and brings me close to a panic attack. I’m terrified of my ex trying something stupid just to hurt me and causing harm to my son. I’m scared he’ll start stalking my son and I.

He threatened me today saying he was thinking of going for primary custody. I feel he said it to upset me but I don’t want to risk it if he meant it.

He said it out of the blue for no reason. I don’t understand why he’s got to try and stress me out on purpose. What can he gain from that?

Please no judgmental comments or hateful remarks towards me. I can’t take anymore of it right now. I just want advice not rude remarks....

Clarification.

He is no longer my significant other and hasn’t been since thanksgiving.

I have left him, as in broken up and he’s gotten worse. I never lived with him, I live with family on Private property but plan to get my own place in a few months. I will however remain living on the same PRIVATE property as my family. ( having a house brought out and placed on the property.) He knows where I live and has entered our property without permission before.... He has no fear about doing this after the baby is born....