I know the aweful feelings all to well we dont have a problem getting pregnant just staying pregnant so the problem lies with me:( Your supposed to be excited content and happy to be pregnant but no matter how hard I try to be I can't cuz the thought of it happening again crosses my mind constantly! All I am is scared worried and depressed:( I want to be happy so bad but if I let my guard down and be that I'll get crushed so if I stay reserved about it it won't hurt so bad if it happens:( It's an aweful feeling I hate it! my SO says all the time stay posative and things will be posative! Manifest it and it will be! I'm just to insecure and I gotta protect my heart:( then they say after the 1st trimester your safe! Not when you've lost at 16 weeks:/ then I'm high risk so that plays back in my head time and time again I could mc at anytime then omg what if it happens later rather then sooner! eww why can't I just be happy:(