Me and my boyfriend are in a LDR and have been with each other for 5 months now. I have been raped twice in the past and they were both in the past 2 years. On camera FaceTime I used to let him see my pussy see everything but I wasn’t fully comfortable with that but I done it to please him. Don’t get me wrong he wasn’t pressuring me to do anything at all, he’s sweet. But recently over this past month Ive been having nightmares and panic attacks than usual as it’s the year anniversary of my rape. He helps me through all of the panic attacks ect and yes I do go to therapy once or twice a week. I send him photos of my pussy and boobs even my ass in all different positions. Even go on camera and show him my boobs when he’s jerking off to help him. Over this month I always help him cum and he wants me to cum with him but I say no. 5 minutes ago on a call he asks me to show him my pussy on video, which he knows isn’t okay most days but sometimes I do it for him. When I said no he said “this isn’t funny anymore I’ve tried to put up with it but now I can’t just not, you seriously need to fix this and yourself” I help him cum, send him photos yet it feels like every hour he just wants to fuck again and again. I just don’t know what to do and I’m severely hurt by him now as I do everything for him. What the fuck should I say to him and what should I do?