Part of me still hurts... Part of me still wishes you were here... Part of me wishes you never left... All of me wishes you didn't kill Lily Grace... As much as it pains me I know you had your reasons... Part of me still loves you Ashley... all of me wishes I could truly understand your reasoning behind your games and madness... I dream of our daughter every night and wake up wishing I was dead so I could be with her... forever will I be in missery and unable to truly move on... In my heart and soul I knew you were the one I'd be with forever a future so pure and happy, but you threw it away for God knows what? I regret none of it all though it pains me... You're the reasoning behind my pain and misery... May 17th our daughter would've been born and soon after we were to be married... God gave me you don't you remember? Or was that just a facade? I still have the ring... And it's always on me... Because of you I am in a dark tunnel that only ends in heartache and failure... I remember the moment I laid eyes on you... I wanted that moment to never end... The touch of your hand and the smell of your skin mesmerized me completely... You got me to sing in a bar full of people and that's a hard thing to do... I honestly hope and pray and wish I would wake up and realize this was all a dream, a nasty vivid fucking nightmare... For my heart was and still is yours... You left me so broken and Dead inside I can't be who I was before you came into my life... When you left on the 28th of september that was the day I took my last breath... October 11th was the day you signed my death certificate... Yet... I'm still in love with you...