I’m 15, my stepdad(Nathan) is 37, when I was in the sixth grade (11) he started doing unacceptable things (slapping my ass, touching my inner thighs, and making inappropriate type comments) but I was only there three weekends a month and for a lot of them he was hardly home. Then at the end of grade seven I loved in with my mom, but Nathan got sick and couldn’t work anymore, so mu mom had to pick up the slack with two other jobs. She was never home I’d take care of my siblings, make sure they were fed and taken care of because Nathan wouldn’t, but he’d still take credit for it all making my mom start to become very mean especially once I started to develop more of a body shape. While all this was happening Nathan was slapping my ass, touching my inner thighs, making comments without restraint, and was touching my chest putting him hands up or down my shirt. My mom accused him of inappropriate relations with me but he denied it and so when she was home i was safe, but she still worked a lot so I wasn’t all that safe. Then this past school year he started becoming more violent and it became more than all the things previously stated he’d hit me too, push me down stairs, do anything he could to hurt me... and he became fixated on my ass and midsection. And it just kept getting worse, then he found out I got a boyfriend this past September and it all got worse, then in October he decided I needed to be put on birth control, less than a week later something even worse happened. He was drunk and we were talking (because we has watching the show Bones with me on Netflix) I was on the other side of the room then he asked why I’m insecure, and i told the truth I’m not as pretty as the other girls. He walked over to me and he pulled up my shirt... he started pinching my stomach to show how little fat i had then when he did that he was shocked I guess, he started rubbing my stomach and up onto my rubs under my breast then he started to push down the front of my pj pants but he stopped and stood up and said “ that was all dirty just so you know” and then he sat down and started talking about how boys were so smooth in his day asking to give girls massages with lotion to get girls to sleep with them then he offered to give me a massage and said all sorts of other things trying to convince me to let him be near me in an intimate way that would lead to something more I guess he was thinking, but I declined and locked myself in my bedroom and cried. The next day my tank top rode up when I was sitting and I guess he could see the lace of my underwear because he said to my mom” why the fuck is Sierra wearing sexy underwear” my mom then threatened to kick me out. So I called a helpline cuz I was finally cracking and falling apart about everything that’s happened to me. They contacted social services and the police started an investigation and i went to live with my dad. I found out a week ago he’s not being charged, and last night I found out why. Talking to a family friend on my moms side who believes me (unlike my mother) told me what my mom had told her, my mom said that she was there when he touched my stomach and that they were having a body positive conversation with me. Her lie is why he’s not being charged... it’s her fault he’s getting away with it and idk how to handle this... it scares me because he could show up at any time and he could hurt me... she’s why he gets to walk... idk if I can forgive her... I don’t know what to do... I have just been going through the motions since October when this all happened... I’ve been pretending I’m okay but I’m not okay... and now I just feel numb and I can’t let myself feel the hurt even though i need to... I don’t know what to do...