Uhhh???

My husband made feel like shit!!!we been ttc for two years now nothing yet but yesterday he told that his glad that god hasn’t given us a child!!i know he was drunk when he said it .... it broke my heart cuz I been everything to try to get pregnant...he hasn’t got checked himself!but some how it’s my fault.... am at point where I want out of this relationship I know I deserve better then that!!!!am just really hurt because he acts like he didn’t say anything...I work nights I always make sure that I leave the clean and dinner made for him ........I just feel tried and angry he just make feel that am falling as women