Hi mommas. Today was my first day back to work. Let me start by saying I never cry. I’ve always been emotionally hard (Besides with my dog) 😆 and very independent. Probably bc my dad was a dead beat and my mom raised me all by herself working 2 jobs. We do not talk to any of my family they’re all toxic people (drugs, lairs, thieves etc)

Well I cried last night before work and today when I got home I cried. We have a nanny. I like her. She was house sitting for us with our animals before and she raised 3 daughters of her own.

But I just can’t help but feel incredibly sad? Depressed? Low? I don’t know what it is. My husband, my mom and now my new little girl are all the family I have. I feel like I’ve transitioned into a part time mom.

My husband makes real good money and I have a decent salary. I had the option of staying home but didn’t because I thought I’d get too bored? Lonely? I’ll give it some time I suppose. I don’t hate my job and I don’t love it.

Hell I don’t know I just wanted to vent.