Fucking Pissed

I’m going to try my best to make a long story short.. Me and my boyfriend of just about 3 weeks shy of our 4 year anniversary had a Big blow out in front of his mom and sister. I️ basically lost my ever loving mind.

I️ told Home I️ HATED HIM FOR THE WAY HES TREATED ME, I️ said AND I️ HATE HIM BEING ON THE FUCKING PHONE ALLT HE TIME, I️ CAN KNLY TAKE SO MUCH, I’m TIRED OF HIM ALWAYS PUSHING ME AWAY! Ex: I️ giv him hugs and kiss and he sits there...

I️ lost it so much I️ actually scared my self for a second, then it felt good to yell it out. We got into this fight because it was the last straw of patience I️ had. I️ have been so stressed out lately that iv been physically sick. Let’s cut this part short and just say he was on his goddamn phone while I️ WAITED to leave the house for 15 min BECAUSE OF THE PHONE. So I️ didn’t not lose it because of the phone but because that little thing was enough to set me off about everything.... After I️ was done yelling I️ got the fuck out of the house and slammed the door crying. Called my dad because well I️ just didn’t want to tell my mom. I️ was gone for idk how long till his mom and sister found me on some road sitting on the kerb. I️ get back to the house, and see he left to his grandmas to get his charger. I️ took some unisom so my ass can sleep. Now we’ve prob said 3 whole sentences to one another today. We said we would talk later about everything and now he has left to sleep at his grandmothers house. This may not sound so bad but when u have a fight like this for the first time u don’t just go away like shit never happened... he had the choice to stay or to go and he fucking went.. I️ was so pissed that even his family and my father said I️ have never heard or seen you like that. I’m pissed about or fight and I’m pissed off about a lot of the other shit going on in my life. I️ don’t know if I️ should call him and say something about how we’re suppose to all and he just left? Or just leave it and wait. THANK YOU.