I am feeling so incredibly emotional tonight. I just had a nice cry in the shower, because That’s really the only place I like to cry. I work at a family practice doctors office as a certified medical assistant and My most absolute favorite part of the job used to be rooming the wee little babies and pregnant women. My co worker let me room all of them because she knew they were my favorite. Since my miscarriage and D&C; on 09/22/17, I have changed. I am so sour about pregnant women and want to cry when the infants come in now. I am so incredibly mad that God took my twin babies away from me at 10 end and 6 days..... also, my best friend has a really good friend who is 20 weeks pregnant right now. She was trying to get pregnant when I was 5 weeks..... and I was so excited for her to get pregnant. But now I hide all her posts on Facebook, I don’t want to see her when I visit my best friend, I don’t want to know the sex of her baby, I don’t want to have anything to do with her. I am so mad that God took away my babies.... and what upsets me most is this is not me. I miss loving infants and pregnant woman. It truly used to be my favorite thing, and now it just makes me angry. Anyone else relate????? What do you do???? I pray so many times a day to please let God soften my heart to what it used to be.....