Is it weird that I️ only like being fingered by my boyfriend and not myself?

I️ masterbate all the time in the shower using the shower head. And I️ love it! But when I️ go to masterbate in my bed with my fingers, I️ hardly find pleasure! It wasn’t until my boyfriend started fingering me that I️ enjoyed it! He didn’t even know what he was doing and it was 1000x better than me. And every time he does it it gets better and better. But whenever I️ finger myself I️ end up just feeling uncomfortable and it feels wrong. Why can’t I️ pleasure myself?