Feeling a little down 😞

Kim • 👼🏻MC 12/5/17👼🏻💖09/2018💖💙11/2019💙💖02/2021💖💙01/2022💙

Yesterday was a month since my first miscarriage. It had been my first pregnancy. And i thought you know since it was my first mc nothing could really happen. But i was wrong. At almost 7 weeks i miscarried my baby. I had gone in to my obgyn 4 days before i think and had seen my little baby with the heartbeat. That same day my doctor told me once we see the heartbeat the risk of having a mc lowers a lot. I trusted that. And then dec 5th when i miscarried, i didn’t feel really sad when the er told me “We found the baby in the uterus. But we didn’t see a heartbeat. Maybe it’s too early”. But once she said no hb i could feel my face getting cold. Cause i knew that meant i had lost my baby. I guess it really didn’t hit me till yesterday when my 18 year old sister (don’t wanna sound rude cause of her age) told me she thinks she’s pregnant and wants me to help her out. Wants me to take her to the doctor to confirm. She’s afraid of telling her boyfriend and his parents (her bf is 16). I feel bad for wanting to say no. She’s my sister and i should help her but i feel like if i do, I’m going to break down at some place that isn’t home. I don’t want her feeling bad for telling me. But i can’t stop feeling angry. I know it’s selfish and i want to stop feeling this way. Any advice? TIA