Anyone else?

I’m just over 16 weeks pregnant with my rainbow baby, as much as I try to remain positive, I still feel like I’m holding back feel like I still have that thought in the back of my mind to not get too excited, I don’t think I’m feeling the emotions that I should be due to feeling anxious. I thought I’d feel better after the 12 week scan but I still have that horrible thought in the back of my mind holding me back, and I hate the waiting and anticipation of finding out if everything is alright. Has anyone else felt like this? Or is it just me? 😞