TMI topic. Very sensitive but info on Late Abortion needed..

Hi. I'm currently 18+0 weeks as of Sunday, 01/07/18. and a few days ago on friday morning, I was informed by my cardiologist that my health is slowly declining, my heart is becoming weak because of all the stress from pregnancy and all that's going on in my life, and that I'm having way more extra palpitations in

my heart beats and that I actually have a chance of 'Dying' before its time for me to give birth. I have pulmonary hypertension and I've been trying my hardest to find specialist and high risk doctors to help me survive my pregnancy since I was 10 weeks, but hearing this makes me incredibly scared and worried about my unborn.

I have a daughter that is 2½ and when I was in labor with her, my doctors Heart something wrong with my heart and my pressures would be weird and my beats would range from extremely low to dramatically high.

anyways, I nearly survived ny daughters birth, and now two years later this happened. I really wanted to keep my child, ive already felt their kicks. and I still haven't found out the gender and I'm having to call for consultations for a late term abortion because as much as i want this child, I also have to be alive for the one I have here. and I don't want my daughter to be father AND motherless and for my unborn to be at risk if I dont survive long enough and for it to be motherless also.

so I was asking for help for information on 18week surgical abortions because I'm just so scared of the thought of losing my precious creation and I want to understand what they'll go through and what i will too. I know this child deserves so much more than to be aborted, but i don't have a choice and its a life or death situation. And this will be something I'll never forgive myself for, even knowing my baby will be in a much better place, safe and sound and waiting for me to go up there and finally meet him and be there for them when i couldn't.

please I just need help, I have until I'm 20 weeks to get this procedure done in Arizona, and if i pass the time, I will have to carry on and risk mine and the baby's life. and also risk my child being parentless.

No hate please, ive been in such a deep depression and full of stress since the father left and now all this is coming. all i ask is for help please. and I know this is a mistake I could've prevent but i wasn't fully thinking at the time with my situation.

I also apologize to those who find this offensive, I never meant to harm anyone's feelings.