Feeling down

I broke up with my boyfriend of four months and I honestly regret it because he’s made me into a better person and he’s changed my attitude positively to things I use to look at negatively.

I ended things because we never use to see each other and my mum doesn’t like him so I can barely facetime him either and I feel so bad because I always have to end plans and I feel like he can do so much better. When I said we couldn’t be a thing no more he thought I was joking and he was saying stuff like ‘don’t be silly’ and I carried on stupidly and all he said was okay bye and then he rang my friend all upset and annoyed and he thinks theres another boy in the way so I text him saying thats not the case and he just ignored it and honestly I regret ending him but I don’t want to get his hopes up anymore and I honestly love him but I can’t