I'm so lost.

me and my boyfriend have been ttc for several months. last month I lost it to a cp. I know some of you are gonna day are you sure you were pregnant. yes, I can't fully feel it but, I have absolutely no period symptoms. my discharge wasn't normal. I felt full, like everything felt full for days. I always get quite a bit acne the week before my period, but I hadn't gotten any yet. and then all of a sudden, everything was ripped away from me. no that's actually how I felt. I went from this amazing full feeling to something doesnt feel right. if fact, it felt completely wrong. and then the spotting happened, and I got scared. so I tested. heartbroken I got my bfn. and then I felt the worse pain ever the next day. all of a sudden I'm hit with cramps that make me double in pain. I could stand to eat anything. every smell made me want to throw up.the bleeding was so heavy. I couldn't keep tampons in. I felt like I was going through hell

we tried again this month but bfn and period. its not the same as usual though. my systems didn't start till 2 days before ad came. but I told told my boyfriend I thought I had a chemical pregnancy, but I guess he didn't understand it, cause he dumped me saying that I changed.I dont know what's going on anymore