is this good?

are them getting darker meaning all is going good. sorry to ask but I had stillbirth October 2016 @36+2 followed by missed misscarriage march 2017 removed at 12 weeks but was only measuring at 6 no hb. so a year on to that exact cycle I'm pregnant again so I'm stressed for so so many reasons. is this gonna last will I get this baby home I'm a nervous bloody wreck we want this baby so much I originally really wanted a girl but having list my son in such a cruel way all I want need and crave is a baby that cries and that is alive and to bring him or her home I have added my month of conceiving dunno of it will help anyone.