Update 01/10/18: Overwhelmed by nausea today, have a pounding headache that will not quit, and everything smells weird. Crying at the drop of a hat over stupid stuff. Constantly hungry but I have no appetite and don’t want to eat anything because of the nausea and all the weird smells. Gettin’ pretty anxious about testing again. 😃

Update 01/11/18: Woke up this morning still feeling extremely nauseas. Experiencing some mild cramping but nothing I haven’t been feeling for the past couple days. Went to the bathroom for the second time at about 9:30 and saw this... (TMI picture ahead)

Hoping it stays at just a bit of light spotting. AF isn’t due til Saturday; I’m just trying to hold on to the little bit of hope that I had....but it’s slipping away very quickly. I just don’t know what to do. 😞

Update 01/12/18: It’s over. AF showed her stupid, ugly face so I’m officially out. Feeling devastated, once again, and floundering to try and recover enough to put on a good face for work. Doing this month after month is quickly becoming exhausting.